Ever since the death of my father in February of this year, I've thought a lot about the legacy of his life and my own. Seems like my dad made a lot more contributions to the development of the Kingdom of God, than I have. By the time he was my age he had already been a major influence in the writing of teen and college age study materials, helped to launch the concept of campus ministry, been involved in leading hundreds of adult Bible school or study leaders in new and effective ways for bringing enlightenment of God's Word.
Me, I haven't had that kind of impact. I've held several located ministries that are seemingly of inconsequential impact. My biggest accomplishment was leading a church to grow enough to purchase and relocate to an abandoned Wal-Mart building. Not quite the same impact. Oh sure, we average about 70 additions a year during my nearly 13 year tenure. And we launched an Hispanic church that was doing quite well at last report. We did raise up several young people who are now involved in missions, but I can't say that that equates with level of my dad.
Right now I'm involved in a struggling church plant. It's been uphill all the way with lots of set backs and challenges, more disappointments than victories. The spiritual battles have been relentless. The satanic attacks almost unbearable. Yet, we march on in God's power, pursuing God's call.
As I've contemplated the difference in the calling and Kingdom impact between my dad and me, my daughter has shared with me the pressure she felt to live up the impact both of us have made. I'm thinking, I don't know what you're talking about because I certainly haven't made that much of impact in the overall development of the Kingdom.
Proverbs 17:6 talks about how grandchildren are a crown to the aged. One of the joys for both my dad and mom have been the number of grandchildren they have that are involved in full time Christian service. The heritage and passion for the God and His Kingdom lives on. The legacy of my parents is that their kids and grandkids are pursuing a passionate relationship with Christ. Forget all the other accomplishments, that's the one of greatest significance to them.
But in that same verse Solomon also talks about the fact that parents are the pride of their children. I look at my parents with a great deal of respect for all they have done in impacting this world for Christ. There is no way I could ever live up to them. I'm sure my daughter feels the same way. Yet, I know that I'm not perfect, nor was my dad or is my mom. I want to be proud of my parents, it's only natural. I am proud of my parents. But their calling is not my calling.
I don't have to be a world changer with lots of recognition. All I have to do is make a difference in the world around me. To bring joy to my grandparents, who have long since passed, and to my parents is to serve God with all my heart and to instill the same desire in my children. If my children have the same passion to serve God with all their heart, soul, mind, and strength, then I've brought joy to my parents.
Although I'm not a grandparent yet, I long to see the day when my grandchildren will grow to embrace God and His Kingdom. I pray that through my children, their children will find themselves involved in expanding the Kingdom of God and sharing the Good News with others.
God, sometimes I feel like I'm letting my parents down and letting you down for not achieving some great accomplishment in your Kingdom. I want to live up to my dad's heritage, but I really feel inadequate and even a failure at times. Yet I know that I'm following your calling on my life for me right now and that's all you ask me to do. Use me God to your fullest. Take my talents and gifts and multiply them to maximum effectiveness for your Kingdom. I pray also for my children to grow in their passion for you and desire to impact their world with your wonderful Good News and grace.
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