Ever Felt Worthless? (Ps. 139:13-16)

Ever felt worthless, like you life doesn't really amount to much? Boy, I have. There have been times when I really wondered why I was even on this earth. I think most people go through those emotions at some time in their life. In this tough economy with unemployment at ten percent and under employment is at twenty percent, I am sure there are a lot people pondering their self worth. Losing a job can sure mess you up, especially if you have been unable to find a new one.

Of course losing a job isn't the only reason for a deflated self image. The loss of virtually anything can have the same effect whether that's losing a house, a family member, a long time friend or group of friends, a chunk of your savings or investments, a long held position of service or something as simple as a sporting event. Self worth is a complicated thing. A poor self image can effect our mood, our productivity, our motivation, our health, our sleep patterns, our attitude, our outlook, our relationships, and our confidence.

To those of you who, like me, have had some recent rough patches that have damaged your self esteem let me remind you of a passage from Psalm 139 that has refreshed me. Verses 13-16 are a reminder that God is totally aware of your situation. He saw it before you knew what hit you. You're whole life was laid out to him before even one day of them ever happened. He was there before you got there or where you are right now. He knew before you were born what you were going to need today in terms of strength, comfort, guidance and resources. He also knows what's in store for you tomorrow.

Your value is not determined by your job or what material things you possess or what level of status you have or by who likes you or who doesn't. Your value has been determined by God. YOU ARE FEARFULLY AND WONDERFULLY MADE. I used to keep a poster in my office during my youth ministry days that simply said, "God don't make no junk!" Not very grammatically correct, but you understand the point. You have been cosmically and custom designed by God to be who you are. Everything God creates is good, because HE sees to it.

That's not to say that we're perfect or that we'll always choose to the right thing or even the good thing. Part of the goodness that God created in us is personal choice. Sorry, can't blame God for our bad choices and there are consequences for the choices we make or have made. But even in our bad choices, God is there to redeem, restore and renew because we are valuable to Him.

If God truly did "knit me together in my mother's womb," as Psalm 139 says, that means that He must have a special purpose for me in His Kingdom and on this planet. He didn't just throw me down here on this planet to take up space. Everything God creates He does so with plan and purpose in mind. Sometimes I'm not always clear what that specific purpose is for me, but I know what His general purpose is for me and that is to bring glory to Him. And as His child in Christ, I am to bring a blessing, His Good News, to the people around me.

I don't have to have a specific job or position or talent or looks or economic level to do that. I simply have to extend myself in behalf of God to others. The Apostle Paul said that he learned to be content in all situations. When you look at Paul's life you realize that if someone had a right to feel down on himself or defeated or all alone or abandoned or rejected or friendless, he certainly did.

But Paul discovered that his value was in God alone, Christ alone. That and God's grace was simply enough for him. Stripped of everything earthly, sitting in a prison cell, he found reason to praise and celebrate and enjoy his life in Christ and to be a blessing to others.

When I center my focus on things of earthly descent or standard, my personal value can get tattered, torn and pretty roughed up. Depression creeps in and steals my joy. But if I can focus on the fact that I am fearfully and wonderfully made, created uniquely by God for His special purpose and pleasure, it changes me. No matter your circumstance, you are still of eternal value and have incredible things to offer to those around you. Just go bless somebody and do it today.

God, it's real easy to start feeling sorry for myself when things don't go my way. I don't why I put so much value on my job or position or economic status. I guess in my desire to be loved and recognized by others, I lose sight of what really gives me value and significance. I get more worried about me than about being the vessel you created me to be as your representative. Thanks for creating me, me. I know that I'm far from perfect, but I'll have to wait for you to do that in me at the resurrection. Give me the courage and confidence to just bless someone else today. I'm trusting in your plan and that you'll take care of my needs and that of my family. I recognize my inadequacies and fallacies, but I put my life in your hands.

Refreshment and Giving (Prov. 11:19-27)

There is a saying, "What goes around, comes around." I'm not sure that is always true, but if you read through Proverbs you'll realize that there is wisdom in pursuing the things of God. In chapter 11, Solomon states some practical and reassuring principles about investing your life. He says things like, "the righteous man attains life, but he who pursues evil goes to his death;" the Lord detests men of perverse heart, but he delights in those whose ways are blameless;" and "Be sure of this: The wicked will not go unpunished."

Those are some great truths by which to live. But the verse that caught my eye in this passage was twenty-five, "A generous man will prosper; he who refreshes others will himself be refreshed." Generosity tells a lot about what is going on in the heart of a person. Oh sure there are people who are generous so that they may gain something in return, whether that's future favors or consideration or simply an attempt to promote their own name.

But the second part of this verse is the telling factor, "those who refreshes others." There it is, a true heart of giving; those who chose willfully to sacrifice of their own resources to the benefit of others. The goal isn't personal gain. It's all out giving.

Giving isn't always just financial or material things. It's using your life to bring a blessing and refreshment to others. It's about pouring yourself out like a drink offering to God. It's watching the neighbors kids so they can do some shopping or run necessary errands or just to give them a break. It's mowing the neighbors lawn. It's lending a hand to someone. It's bringing laughter to those around you. It's ministering in a time of need. It's bringing God's Good News to the downcast.

There are many other verses in the Bible that support this giving heart or mentality, but some of those also bring a promise. Jesus says in Luke, "Give and it will be given to you, a good measure, pressed down, shaken together and running over will pour into your lap." Ecclesiastes says, "Cast your bread on the waters and after many days you'll find it or it will flow back to you." 2 Corinthians says, "whoever sows generously will also reap generously."

Solomon here says that those who refresh others will themselves be refreshed. That's a great promise. It's in giving that we are truly the ones who are blessed. Jesus said that it's better to give than receive. It's in our giving that we closely resemble the heart of our God. For God so loved the world that he GAVE. Not only is there an altruistic sense of personal joy when we give, there's an awareness that we partnering with our creator. In some sense we're becoming like him in that moment.

Yet I think that there is more to the promise here. God promises to refresh those who refresh others. As you pour out, you empty yourself, God's promise is to refill you, renew you. Those who pour out need to drink in once in a while otherwise there is nothing left to pour out. He refills our cup through his word, his spirit, his power, his resources. Some of those resources includes the very ones to whom you as the giver refreshed. People will give back to you. Other servants of God will come along side of you and pour into your life.

I've experienced that in my own life recently. There have been many who have come along side of our church and my family personally and financially. It's been refreshing just to see God's family at work. When you pour your life out to refresh others, it's not a vain exercise. Yes people will always take advantage of you. But if you read the rest of this proverb you will discover that they will get their just reward. Rest assured, God is fully aware of your situation. He will dole out in due season the appropriate response. But the choice comes down to us. Give generously or focus on yourself.

God, I want to be known as one who refreshes others, not as one who drains the life out people around me. I want to model your character as a giver. I know that I only have the resources that you bless me with. I want to use them wisely for you, to bless the kingdom, the world you created. Refresh me so that I may continue to be a blessing to others and refresh others in your name.

Daily Reflections on Lk. 12:13-21 (On Being Rich)

I don't consider myself rich by any means. I live in a relatively modest neighborhood. I drive a sixteen year old van and a seven year old car. We don't have the latest gadgets, electronics, or big screen TV. We don't have cable or a dish. We use a lot of coupons for groceries and buy new clothes only when necessary or on special occasions. I don't have a boat or a jet ski or own lots of acreage.

Having said that, compared to many people around the globe, in third world countries and inner cities, I'm well off. I don't worry about where my next meal is coming from or where I'm gonna sleep tonight. Sure, I live paycheck to paycheck, but at least I have a paycheck.

Sometimes I look around and wish I had more. I dream of what it'd be like to be Bill Gates or Warren Buffet. What would it be like to have billions of dollars? I'll probably never know. (Okay, I'll never know.) I guess I'll just have to settle for a few cool million. Right.

Why is it that what we have is never enough? I saw a survey a few years ago that asked the question, "How much money would you need to make to be happy?" Ironically, every income bracket chose the income bracket above what they were currently making.

God has a different definition of what makes for wealth. Rich in God's terms doesn't necessarily equate to the world's terms. To the world, rich is the accumulation of material goods. To God, rich is the generosity of our heart and spirit toward others. It is giving versus getting. Jesus said the two mites given by the poor widow was a bigger gift than the large sums of cash tossed into the Temple coffers by the wealthy man.

Jesus didn't condemn the rich farmer for his material success in this parable. He did, however, point to the fruitlessness of his labor collecting goods only for himself. He didn't condemn the man for having or enjoying his wealth. The criticism came for his selfish hoarding. Jesus points out the futility of amassing great wealth. Eventually, it only ends up in the hands of someone else anyway. How much better it would have been in life, if the rich farmer had been a blessing to others. According to God, I'm rich when I share my resources to the aid and benefit of others.

God, you know I have limited personal financial resources, but I want to be rich toward you. I want to be your vessel whereby you bless others. I open myself to you. Make me rich in your eyes.

Daily Reflections on Lk. 11:2-4 (Meaningless Prayers)

A friend of mine and I were musing one day about the ritual of praying before we ate. He jokingly utted the prayer, "Rub a dub dub, thanks for the grub." I crossed myself and we dug in. Another friend joined us and upon hearing our conversation looked heavenward and simply said, "You know I'm thankful." Don't think we were being disrespectful or sac religious. We had gathered at breakfast to spend an hour in prayer, seeking God's will together.

Ironically, however, that is about how many look at prayer. For some, if you swallow one bite of food without praying for your meal, you've ruined it and you'll probably have indigestion for the rest of the day or maybe the week. For some, the words they utter before they devour are as meaningless as my friend's facetious prayer. For some, "The Blessing" magically transforms this ordinary food into holy food which directly goes to the healthful "nourishment to our bodies" even if it's sugar-filled, greasy or high in saturated fat. For some there's barely an acknowledgment of God's involvement in our lives.

The habit of praying before you eat is not to be about dogmatism, ritual or token acknowledgment of God's presence. It's to be a sincere appreciation of God's involvement, concern, provision and protection. Unfortunately for many, the few words spoken aloud or breathed in silence at a meal may be the only time they even stop to recognize God during the day. And because of the harriedness of the day, even that sometimes slides by unattended.

The point of prayer in the first place is to invite God into your life. When teaching His followers to pray, Jesus instructed them to begin by focusing on our relationship with God, asking Him to exercise His will in our life. We share our need with a heart of submission and authenticity, recognizing our dependence and desire for God's involvement. We ask for God's Spirit to continue to transform us into the image of His son. We ask for the ability to offer grace, mercy and forgiveness.

That kind of prayer doesn't happen in 10-15 seconds before we dine on our delectables. That kind of prayer stems from a deep desire to know and pursue God in every element of our life.

God, forgive me when I insult you with my brash or insolent attitude. You're more than a passing thought or personal ritual to bring good luck to my life. God, your the center of my life. I need and want you involved in my daily activities. I thirst and hunger for you.

Daily Reflections on Jn. 21:1-19 (Failure, Mistakes, and Screw Ups)

Anything worth doing is worth doing poorly at first. I should know, I've done a lot things poorly. However, more often than not, after doing them again and again I generally get better. Very few of us are experts the first time we attempt something. I've never got "high score" on a video game unless it's the first time it's played.

Life is often that way. We learned to walk by taking a few step and going down. We'd take a few more steps and down again. We learn from our failures, our mistakes. We can be cruising along, enjoying the moment of life and suddenly, CRASH, we've just wrecked.

My daughter and I were tooling down the interstate at 70 mph in very heavy traffic when suddenly everyone stopped. It was like a scene out of a movie; tires screeching, cars careening out of control hitting ditches, sliding sideways. Me, I locked up the brakes and tried to slide in between the 2 lanes of cars, just as a van did the same thing from the other lane. I avoided the van but couldn't quite squeeze between it and the semi-sideways car in front of me.

Gun-shy wouldn't describe how I was driving or even riding in a car for several weeks. Panic would be a better word any time somebody's brake lights went on in front of me. I was a mess. But after one session with our counselor, I was back behind the wheel doing fine. Accidents, mistakes, failures happen in life. You can't let them hold you down or back. Wallowing in self pity or simply accepting a one time incident as fate, takes you out of the joy and potential of life. Besides, sitting on the sidelines prevents you from fulfilling God's plan and purpose for your life.

Jesus restored Peter after his colossal failure. He'd cashed in his future and had settled for an unfulfilling past. But Jesus helped him through it and gave him charge of his own mission. Just a few weeks later, Peter was baptizing 3,000 people into Christ and standing up to the religious hierarchy who threaten to kill him. Quite a change.

Having made my fair share of mistakes, failures and screw ups, I've learned that the more I trust in God and rely on the Holy Spirit, the better off I am. Acknowledging and learning from my screw ups only makes me better. God's grace is always bigger than my disgrace. God already knows I'm a mess. When I admit it, confess it, surrender it, He often takes my very weakness and uses it to His glory to minister to someone else.

God, thanks for your grace. When I'm weak, then you're strong. Thanks for turning my blunders into your blessings. Because of you, my failures don't disqualify me. God re-mold me, replenish me, re-use me for your Kingdom glory.